Who am I?
Posted by Kevin Chan in Uncategorized on May 15, 2010
I tell you I’m chasing my dream, and for 95% of the time, I’m perfectly honest. I’m doing exactly what I want to do, and working hard towards my goals.
But during the wee hours of the nights, that nagging five percent of the time, I just find myself unable to answer that fundamental question – who am I?
Who is Kevin Chan?
Why after countless hours of journaling, self-reflection and meditation, can you still not be sure of who you are?
Who am I?
A brand new chapter.
Posted by Kevin Chan in Journal, Uncategorized on May 10, 2010
A brand new chapter of my life starts in about 10 hours time. I can just feel those final pages turning.
The new chapter.
Every time I enter a new phase of my life, things have turned out way more differently than I had expected them to.
When I just finished secondary school, I always thought that I would attend college in KL, and I somehow ended up in Singapore.
When college was through, I always thought that I would have ended up somewhere overseas doing something like Law, but I ended up doing a double major in Marketing and Business Law in NTU instead.
Things never really turned out the way I expected them to, but they always turned out for the best. And so, here I plan to stick to my modus operandi – to venture headfirst into the exciting, uncharted depths of the future.
I can’t wait to see where this exciting, exciting road takes me!
Difference between somebody you love & somebody you like.
Posted by Kevin Chan in Journal, Love on May 9, 2010
I was just going through the clutter in my wallet and I found this small piece of paper, neatly folded, with words so faint that I could barely read them.
The note.
As I strained my eyes to read the faint writing, I realized that it was a note that a friend wrote to me all the way back when I was still in lower secondary. It was a copy made with fax paper and it nearly was illegible. So I just typed it all out for memory’s sake.
What was written...
The note was titled “Difference between somebody you love & somebody you like“. It’s pretty cute, so here is that old, old note of mine.
Difference between somebody you love & somebody you like
In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster. But in front of the person you like, you get happy. In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring. But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter. If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush. But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile. In front of the person you love, you can’t say everything on your mind. But in front of the person you like, you can. In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy. But in front of the person you like, you can show your own self. You can’t look straight into the eyes of the one you love. But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like. When the one you love is crying, you cry with them. But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. The feeling of love starts from the eye. But the feeling of like starts from the ear. So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears. But If you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever. Flatter me, and I may not believe you, Criticize me, and I may not like you, Ignore me, and I may not forgive you, Encourage me, and I may not forget you. - Author UnknownIt’s been so many, many years since I neatly folded this long note and put it in my wallet, but love’s still that magical adventure it always was. For that secondary school boy who folded that note so many years ago, love is still his life’s craziest, most mystical mystery.
Sins of the past.
Posted by Kevin Chan in Journal, Love on May 8, 2010
Sometimes I feel like I’m still paying for the sins of my past.
Your ghosts still haunt me, mock me, as I seem to still get nowhere.
When will this karmic retribution end?
Please forgive me. I’m really trying to be a better person now.
Say it out.
Posted by Kevin Chan in Journal on April 26, 2010
When it comes to keeping promises to myself, I’ve found that one of the most powerful things that I have done to myself is to actually verbalize and write whatever goals I’ve set for myself out.
For the past week, I found myself constantly ending up doing things that were a big drain on my time and energy. I found myself playing addictive flash games online, watching episodes of “How I Met Your Mother“, as well as playing games with my cousins and friends.
Then I just decided that it all had to stop.
So I made my promises to myself crystal clear, and for that added effect, I said them out loud to myself.
“I WILL NOT watch another episode of “How I Met Your Mother” till Thursday.”
“I WILL NOT touch any more flash games until after the exams.”
“I WILL NOT play Heroes of Newearth until after Thursday.”
Mysteriously, I feel that verbalizing your promises to yourself and sharing them with the people around me helped stave of the temptation to do all those things!
I’m going to keep these little promises I’ve made for myself and work on some larger, world changing, power-packed promises for myself later! Hope this little lifehack helps you guys out there keep your self-promises too!
My name is Kevin Chan, and welcome to my blog on personal development.